Post-grad life: fears, doubts, and what I'm looking forward to

I graduated from college on May 5 without a job, and without any job prospects. I walked across the stage, accepted my diploma, and sat down amongst graduates with internships and amazing jobs awaiting them, and I felt totally alone. 

I know, I know, so dramatic, and I definitely was not the only graduate feeling that way, but in that moment, I thought I was 10 steps behind the pack. 

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Post-grad life has been a weird mixture of emotions. As I'm sure everyone who has graduated high school/college can attest, there are days when I feel overwhelmed by fear, change, and the anxiety that inevitably accompanies job-hunting; but there are also days where I'm so, so, so thankful. Throughout the past three weeks, in between the "real life" meltdowns, I've been able to do things that other college graduates probably couldn't. I've gotten to spend time with my family, plan my wedding, and straight up enjoy this time of rest before entering the real world. 

I know it's a thought tainted by Millennial ideals, but it's still, in my opinion, a valid one. To enjoy the soft moments that aren't filled with job success or paperwork is a skill that's bred out of us as children, but I'm using this opportunity to relearn it. 

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(Garrison drove by while Clara and I were eating lunch. Naturally, I had to wave!)

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I've given myself permission to enjoy this season of waiting and expectancy, which might be one of the hardest things I've ever done, but here's the big idea: it's okay to give yourself a moment of slack, and it's okay to give yourself a second to breathe. Don't feel 10 steps behind just because other people are choosing to do things differently. 

I know this is a pretty common issue, and if you've dealt with this in your own life, give me some advice in the comments; I'd love to hear about your post-grad experiences and how you dealt with these emotions and fears! 

With love from the waiting,

Em

 

oh oh oh, by the way, these pics are from Main Street Tavern in Broken Arrow. Their food is amazing--especially the chicken slice sandwich and the baked potato chowder.